Today was the first time I set foot in a gym in roughly a year. I think. Maybe just over or under? Anyway, I don’t know what the hell was wrong with me that I didn’t go for that long. Some people hate the gym. I thought maybe I had become one of those people. I’d come up with a million reasons not to go. But, today I went and I realized that I was silly and I really do like going. It felt really good to be back, sweating my ass off, tomato-faced in front of any coworkers that strolled by. Don’t mind me, the tomato look is in as far as I’m concerned. I can’t help it regardless.
I apparently hadn’t used my fitbook since Decemeber 2011. HOLY SHIT. I hopped on Muscle & Fitness’s free workout site and popped the Weight Loss Month 1 workout into my calendar. That’s the workout you see above, in the horrendous handwriting for a chick, and I added in 45 min of cardio. I was a sweat machine! I even managed the wonderful tummy mark on my tank. I know, gross, right? I don’t care. If it gets me back in shape so be it.
I don’t normally talk about weight on here because of all the taboo-ness that surrounds doing that and the fact some people get triggered and stuff. The honest truth is I have about 15-20lbs to lose before I am back at my preferred weight. Being 5’9” means I can carry a little extra and it doesn’t look that bad or noticeable (unless everyone is lying to me), but I don’t feel great and that’s what’s most important. The goal weight I am aiming for is solidly still in the healthy range, but allows muscle definition to show through when I am knee-deep in my lifting. I like that. I still have curves and a bit of body fat, but I’m not overly to one side of the range or the other.
So, yeah. I’m not sure why I let myself get lazy with my health and fitness. Maybe it was part-depression, maybe it was the “oh hey I play soccer now!” attitude, or maybe I just wanted a convenient excuse to not date anyone (can’t meet guys! I feel squishy!). Whatever it was, it’s over and I am happy to be easing back into the routine I used to have. And if you’re gloating over the fact I gained weight this winter (I don’t think anyone that reads here would), think about what that says about you as a person (I’m trying to be less judgey in my 30s!). Words of the “trying-to-get-wiser.”
Post-gym I made a smoothie consisting of a cup of mixed frozen berries, one package of plain nonfat greek yogurt, a scoop of chia seeds, and a tbsp of strawberry jam. It was tasty though I need to figure out a better blender. It was not mixing well at first!
Speaking of dating, I’m actually considering ignoring my disdain for OK Cupid and creating a new account, with less expectations. I think I’m just a little bored since there’s no way in hell my future manpie is in that mess of a website. But, it might generate a few laughs to blog about and I’ll have more daylight hours to kill in the summertime. We’ll see.